So this weekend, although not finished yet....has been the freakin best weekened I've had in a long time. This weekend was The Maryland Community Theatre Festival sponsored by the American Association of Community Theatre held in Fredrick, MD this year. In which the Newtowne Players performed our piece called "Timeflies" by David Ives, which was a smashing hit with the community. I was so freakin nervous the entire day, and when we had finished our scene and waiting to go out I let a big burp and all that anixety was gone. Not only was it the festival but my 22nd birthday in which I throughly enjoyed. Yep this weekend was a blast, so I've decided to included pictures (cuz they say pics are more than 1,000 words.) So with out further delay my weekend in pics........

I had this at some fancy Seafood Restaurant it's called " Name that Tuna".


These shots were in honor of my 22nd birthday, they're called the sexy alligator. I think they're pretty!


Here I am with my friend Kalena.


Here's the group, just chillin' and havin' a few drinks, what a great way to celebrate your birthday.


This was takin at the award dinner. This is Morriah, my director ( it was her 1st time directing) and her husband Dan. We we award the 1st Runner Up at the Competition. 


This is Annie with her Award of "Excellent Costuming" and I can still hear her say, "it wasn't me! I did nothing! It was all Morriah's idea." 


This is my friend Julie, who won a "Best Performance" award in the short play called "Why Not?"

Over all it was a blast. I'm still so exicted for us considering that this is only our second time in the competition, and I'm so proud of (choke!) Sorry I get so emotional....Just kidding but it was a fun and tomorrow I think I will enjoy my last day before, school!!!!!!  NOOOO 

Before you read my poem below I just wanted say how much I miss everyone (but I guess that is obvious). It's hard to keep in contact with thoses that you care about. School, work and well life gets in the way. That is why I wrote this poem. It may not be the best in the world but then I don't write for an award, I write from the heart. From my heart I wish you all a very Merry Christmas. Enjoy!


Christmas Poem

In this season everywhere you look, life is flying by,
So much to do and so much to get.
Gifts for others, things to do, decorations to put,
One can forget the reason for the season.

In this season of commercialism, globalization, and war,
Where life is a marathon, and the clock ticks with every second.
People running to and for in hopes to achieve a peace they cannot find,
One can forget the reason for the season.

In this season of ideas' aboard in claims a better life for those,
While others fight to achieve a diluted hope.
To claim justification for their actions, while politics warp the minds.
One can forget the reason for the season.

In this season where the masses' minds are prisoners to the media,
While your fellow neighbor starves on the street looking for just a crumb.
Begotten traditions fall to the side,
One can forget the reason for the season.


In this season as we run around as marathoners on the track life,
It might be nice to stop awhile and enjoy.
To enjoy the graces that has been given to you.
That might be a reason for season.


In this season the gift of the Holy One and what it means,
The pure in heart scream out the obvious.
But how soon we forget,
The reason for the season.

In this season I wish you love,
I wish you hope and joy.
I wish you all the comfort to be found in Him,
For He is the reason for the season.


Merry Christmas!

So this weekend I did the Sotterly Ghost Walk thing. My part was I was playing a spirit that walked the rolling road, which was fun and boring at the same time. Fun because you scared the living crap out of people but at the same time boring becasue you had to wait. Well, last night sucked ass big time. So a group was coming my way and I got into my position (see my job was to walk the rolling road past the guest), well I got up and started walking really fast sorta like speed walking. Well, my worst fear came true. I smacked into someone and litterally fell off the road into the cliff right next to it. Foruntely I landed on a hollybush that broke my fall and pervented me from falling further. So I'm sitting thinking "Shit! I just fell and I feel myself falling." I couldn't move becasue the guest were still coming, so I sat there and waited for them to walk past me. It was scary as hell because I kept feeling myself falling further back. I managed to cling to something and pull myself back onto the road.

Moral of the story is, don't run in the dark.  

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       So I haven't posted in along time. Been extremly busy with school! On the bright side I have a four day weekend, sorta! Yay! I love not having classes. On the other side I have a huge theatre production due Tuesday that I only got the chance to work with my actors once. Now I can't have pratice on Sunday for St. Paul's Christmas thingy like I was suppose to becasue I HAVE to meet with my peoples on Sun. Sometimes I think Micheal wants us to kill ourselves with as much as work as we can. Well its working, Hmmm.....
       Sides school sucking, life isn't great either. I still haven't heard a response from Garherd about visting him in Switzerland. I'm trying to save money for that adverture, but that is like trying to plug a hole on a sinking boat with a cork. Other than that I'm incrediablly lonely beyond the I miss everyone (becasue I do), it's now at the point where the days begin to drag. I'm trying to meet new people at St. Mary's but lets be honest, that is extermly hard to do becasue when the hell am I ever on campus long enough to enjoy meeting new people?! If something doesn't change soon I'm gonna make it change. I'm getting really antsy to pick up my bags and travel and I wish I had someone who could come. Traveling alone really sucks.

     I just feel like I'm stuck in limbo. I mean I wanna get school done and move on with my life and live, because what I feel right now is not living but just barely making it through the days. I don't have real friends I can hang out with becasue I'm constantly on the go and it is becoming a real problem. I barely see my family and if I do it's like an hour on end. I just wish I could break away from this crappy place I'm in and live life like it was meant to be lived. I want to go and see new places or least enjoy everyday like it was my last. (sighing) God! I'm beinging to think I'm pathetic. I'm just not happy. Yeah, that is a good way to sum up my life right now. God I just want something different. I don't this feeling of depsire any more. I want to feel alive or at least excited about life. 
   It's time like these where I wish I wasn't PJ Baker that I was someone else who didn't mind stepping out and making friends. I miss friends! I miss life! Oh God I miss living! Damn school! Damn socitey's thinking that you must get an education to make it ahead in life! (sighing) If I could just next week and never return. It would be all right with me. Although I can't, I still wish it so much! Well, I'm gonna to go to bed becasue I have stuff to do like usual.

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Did you ever get that feeling of sadness where your heart aches to be there and see old familiar faces? That feeling that you feel trapped by the daily grind and that it feels like you could choke or drown? That feeling that you miss your friends, family, and maybe just a little of the home you once knew?

Did you ever wish you could stand there and applause and cheer for those you love for just the simplest things they do even though they are millions or hundred miles away? Did you ever wish you could just give each one a giant hug and say, "Job Well Done!" Did you ever get that feeling that there is a lump in your throat as you chock on the words to say? That feeling of awkwardness because you're not sure what to exactly say to them?

Did you  ever have the desire to throw all the cares aside in the world and for one moment be back there in the fellowship that meant so much? Do you ever regret the decisions you make in life? Do you ever feel like that you'll never see them again?

Did you ever get the feeling that although it hurts you cannot be by their sides that your presence is still there? Did you ever feel proud to know that although that you fail, others have succeeded because of your efforts? Did you ever stop to realize that although you never really got a thank you for the work that you did, it is because you served others that made the difference and chanced lives of people you'll probably really meet?

Did you ever stop to thank God for the opportunities that he gave you to make a difference in the world, even if it's on a small scale? Did you ever wish you could say something encouraging but finding it rather difficult to express it? Was there a time you would have liked to have done it all over again?

Well, I do....Congratulations Center for Creative Media Internship of 2006. Even though I cannot be there I'm extremely proud to have worked with such awesome brothers and sisters in Christ. Love you all and I hope that one day we'll meet again (cuz I know we will!) -P.J. 

So today I received some horrible news....a friend of mine who was fighting over in Iraq died today in the German hospital surrounded by family. In honor of Matthew Wallace I have written a poem...I know it's not much but I think that is rather appropriate in the circumstances...so with that here is my poem...To man to whom faced the odds to the last ends....

The Fallen...but not Forgotten

By: P.J. Baker

As he lay in his bed one must wonder what was going through his head.

Time was drawing near and yet he laid there scarred from head to toe,

As from a sick twisted horror movie gone terribly wrong,

The Fallen...but not Forgotten.

Family there by his side as he breathed his last.

One could say it was love that kept him a float,

While others argued that it was the technology that was plugged into his skin,

The Fallen...but not Forgotten.

Here laid a man not through worldly measures, but by Gods.

As the body did go limp and the tears flowed bittersweet from the eyes,

A soul found peace amongst the crying,

The Fallen...but not Forgotten.

He was not the first and nor shall he be the last.

A more courageous, honorable, man was he,

And proud are we that he served us well,

The Fallen...but not Forgotten.

Fallen he has and many before and many still.

War was never meant to be pretty, but let us remember those,

Those that sacrificed their lives so we as a nation can live in comfort,

The Fallen...but not Forgotten.

Funny how it seems so distant from us all.

Funny how we dont think about what it brings,

Until it hits close to home and takes those we love,

The Fallen...but not Forgotten.

Let us remember him today, the day that was his last.

A mothers child, a good friend, a brother, and a solider,

All these things he was and more, but alas no more,

The Fallen...but not Forgotten.

Thank You!